Okay I'm just going to spill the beans.
Remember that drama I hinted at several times last month and into this month? Well, I'll spill most of the just on what exactly happened and how it all went to shit, since I'm sick of ranting about it all the time on Twitter
I don't intend to drag my followers into this mess, so feel free to just ignore this and keep browsing the site. I also will not be giving out names out of good spirit.
Basically, a friendship form long long ago was silently collapsing and riding into the pits of hell since early September- only getting worse the following October after a big event arose.
Then, sometime before the middle of December, this guy got the impression that I was interacting with and "helping" all his friends on Facebook for the purpose of coning all his friends into free artwork, even though in truth and most importantly of all it was just to get interactions from them (and because Facebook automatically prioritize posts on people you interact with frequently, which is still a dumb system to begin with). While I did say the possibility of getting artwork from these friends of his, I did not make it the ultimate reason I did add these friends of his to begin with. I wouldn't have cared whenever or not his friends did draw stuff for me as I already get plenty of comms (even though I can't invest in really costly stuff.
Then came the day it happened, an art stream on Picarto goes live, hosted by a friend of the aforementioned "friend". I bring up something civil about "it would be nice if one day I did get something form you" via PM. and at first all seems fine. Then the stream ends and suddenly I receive a big "The Reason you Suck" speech in the form of a massive wall of text from the streamer, saying that it made them uncomfortable followed by an immediate block with no chance to reply. Then the "friend" pops up, shits on me, and blocks me across every site as well.
Afterwards I go asking for help from friends of this guy on what to do to better myself as a person, with mixed results. One artist that is good friends with the "friend"; thanks to me wording my explanations wrong as I was rushing things while trying to apply damage control incase the "friend" started making announcements in secret that I was a fraud/begger (bringing up only the "may have been trying to use their friends for free art" part) only got angry from the comments and sometime later in January after about two weeks of being mute likely decided "nope, it's true, SJB is art begging scum. BLOCKED."Doesn't help that I bought at least two hundred dollars worth of commissions from this person and originally we got along so well via e-mail, only for this drama to kill and silence the relationship.
So then we come to today. Despite things quieting down and me finding peace with some new friends (including those on Discord), the stains of this drama still linger in my mind and on some days/nights I find myself being drowned out and going mute over what I was forced to endure, and to this day I doubt if things will ever return to what they were. But for now I'll just move on and not let this hurt me any further, as this has already driven me to tears the week it happened (yes, it hurt me that much) and I do not wish to make things worse. Depending on how things progress I may try to clear up the act sometime in the few months, especially since it sucks to be apart of a huge misunderstanding that led to the downfall of several friendships.